Something Was Wrong

In this book that I've been reading, Dying to be Ill, they describe a lot of people with factitious disorder, that when they're in the hospital setting, that they become giddy, and they can't hide how excited they are to be cared for.

This memoir should be titled Chronicles of Anxiety.

Chronicles of Chronic Anxiety.

Why I Smoke Weed by Tiffany Reese.

You're like a terrible person. Seeing him have financial power and control over somebody as his, quote, employee was deeply disturbing.

And yesterday I got a copy of My Father's Appeal.

And it covers a bunch of information of his crimes that I don't know about because I've never really looked into any of this.

My most recent is Your Consent, The Key to Conquering Sexual Assault. The revised edition was just published in January. It really serves as the Bible for the work that we do.

Joyce's book, if you want to get a deeper dive into everything, I absolutely recommend it for anybody who's interested in consent, consent educators, people who are passionate about consent. It is a must read.

Also, the way he told me he loved me was probably taken out of a Nicholas Sparks book. I haven't read all of them. And I'm sure now 100%, he literally ripped that out of a page. But it was the most beautiful profession of love I've ever heard in my life. Like he was a poet. It was beautiful. I was like, oh, I'm scoring. This man is in touch with his feelings. He's basically a poet. I scored Nicholas Sparks here.

It's now dawning on me that he knew. He knew when I was leaving Colorado that this could not go on anymore and that would be the last time he saw me. I had no clue. He knew he had to sabotage the relationship on purpose so I would break up with him and this could be over because I was getting too damn close to finding out about him.

I was like, well, you're coming back to Hawaii. I'm going to see you and I'm moving to D.C. We were back on that plan. Then it just all went to shit.

It was so sad and we both were crying. I felt so loved. This trip was a little bit rocky and we had broken up before. So I think he was realizing he was losing me. And he was just so distraught. Like it was put that in the Nicholas Sparks movie again, like the tearful goodbye at the airport, which had my heart wrenched.

After I read that book, a child called it, it was the first thing I read right after I got out and it became my Bible. It was so comforting.

The books that I mentioned earlier, the Debbie and Michael Pearl, which I recommend you look into because there's been a lot of cases of abuse recently and abuse allegations coming from people that followed that type of teaching.

They basically said that not only were you to punish your kids like that, but you were to have a ton of kids and raise the older ones to do the same.

So, by the way, when I think about trolls, I always think about the amazing writer, Lindy West, who both has this American Life episode about confronting her troll.

And she writes about it in her book, Shrill, as well. The series Shrill is based off of her writing.

And I think that gives a far better description of trolls than I may be able to give.

She had a troll who would intentionally dig stuff up about her family and send her harassing emails, harassing phobic emails, and would talk about her mom dying and stuff like that.

She was a romance mystery writer.

They gloamed on the fact that she writes stories like this.

There are murders in all of the books.

Nancy's love story could have been ripped right out of the pages of one of her own novels.

There are murders in all of the books.

I found this app that was basically like an online version of the old post-secret books where people could get secrets off their chest in an anonymous way.

I knew I had to write a book.

So I started writing a book and this was in the midst of everything.

And it's actually kind of how I heard first about what you had been through. I had no idea.

I've read the book and it's incredible. And you put your whole fucking soul into it. And my mom's too.

it's called Working for Justice.

I think it's so cool how we kind of like happened to just connect through Twitter.

And so she had reached out to me knowing that I had talked about this at large on the podcast and she recommended your book and then we got connected and you said you would be on the podcast and I instantly was just like freaking out, so excited.

I think I literally squeed. I actually squeed to my husband about it, honestly, because I was like, oh, she's on your podcast, this podcast is so amazing. She's got this great episode.

I'd like to start chapter six in your book is called Mad for Power. And it is on the topic of gaslighters in politics, society and social media, which is like just so incredibly relevant.

And what's interesting about your book is that it was written, well it came out in 2018 and it feels a lot like when I read this chapter now, like some sort of prequel that you created to 2020 because it's literally so accurate in each piece that you break down of the sort of profile of this behavior is so accurate that it's honestly kind of chilling to read it again today.

My new book, Strong Women Rising, is now available for pre-order on Amazon. It comes out April 14th. I'm very, very proud of it.